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[seacub]

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[softspokenlandlord]

before i came here, power didn't mean much to me. the only reason i wanted it here was to prevent bad things happening to people close to me.

[He knew his turning point, he remembers it clearly. And it hadn't been solely for his own sake that he'd gone to the Fog seeking strength.]

still...the best i can do at this point is to try and repair the damage i've caused. damage that i wish i hadn't caused in the first place, but which i can't pretend wouldn't have been caused anyway.

[seacub]

How did that turn out?

[It's rude. It's a low blow. He knows it is.

Ryou can probably relate to not really giving much of a shit about that.]

Is that a way of justifying it, or a way of saying 'this way things might get fixed after'?

[softspokenlandlord]

[It takes Ryou a moment to answer back, because that does sting, and it makes him want to lash out at Emporio, but...the difference between Emporio and Ryou is that Emporio's a kid.

Ryou really shouldn't.

Even if Emporio is saying the kind of thing that had set Ryou down this pathway in the first place...he chooses to ignore that question entirely, and instead focuses on the second one.]

Nothing is going to justify this to anyone else. No one can understand what I've gone through, and what brought me to this end. That's fine. People can hate me. You...you can hate me too. I wouldn't blame you.

I suppose it isn't really a justification. It's just an explanation from point a to point b, but no one has to accept it.

[Very few had. And he won't force the matter. It's not right to.]

Still...I did something terrible, to further my ends. As I said, if you would prefer not to accept that as an explanation or interact with me, I will do what I can to keep my distance.

[seacub]

[It's the first step to not repeating history, perhaps. And...well, after all, Emporio himself has his reasons for the attitude. Reasons Ryou has no context for, but reasons all the same.]

Just let me think. Let me wait. I can't answer what I actually want, or know, when all I can think about is what just happened, and about what you said to me.

Got it?

[It's not rejection of apology. It's not a request to go out of his way to avoid the other. It's just...

He needs time.]